i just broke up with my bf who ghosted me bc he realized he’s gay (im a woman). i don’t even think i like guys but i have this compulsion to ask out my friend who i blocked just to have a man that treats me right and fit in with straight women who have bfs.
he kept talking about how he could treat me better than anyone else, that i should’ve ditched my bf for him (obv i said no), and badmouthed not only his gf of a few years since age 16 but also his first time. he left her bc she showed signs of schizophrenia and she blocked all his socials after he left.
he kept guilttripping me when i said i didn’t want to be his gf so ik he doesn’t care about consent regardless of what he says. he also completely ignored me liking women and acted like i was straight but i feel lonely.
i kinda wanna make him happy and have a bf who pays attention to me but ik i’m probably just saying this out of sadness. we were friends but i had to block.
That’s it. That’s all your post needed to include. Literally everything else is unnecessary. Your history with your ex is irrelevant to this critical factor.
This is the only piece of information that matters, and it screams, “Hell, no.” This man shouldn’t exist in your romantic space.
Fight the loneliness by working hard over a year to build platonic friendships with groups of people. And then you’ll be able to reenter the arena of romance with a level head, unclouded. Don’t let loneliness cave your standards down. That almost never leads to anything lasting and satisfactory. I’m sorry for the pain you’re going through but the guy you say you’re considering will only severely worsen things, based on your descriptions.